BLEACH !

Tuesday, February 28, 2012,

Where is your promise? Do you even remember? Nope, you dont.. Cause you asked me what promise.. And you cannot do it cause you have a boyfriend. Then if that case don't promise me, when you cannot do it and when you can't even remember!

A few month back, I was so proud to tell everyone that I'm close to my sister. But now, no.. I will say I don't even have one. I just feel that I am a only child with a sister(?) cause I barely see her in the house, and the only time she talk to me is to tell me to do things and yelling at me all over the place.

Where is your patience? Give it all to your boyfriend? Then what bout me? I been accompany you through out your down time, yet I got such treatment? I'm tired to maintain the kinship in between us. I give up.

Oh one last thing, I don't even feel that I belong to this house. This house don't clear up misunderstanding and admit their mistakes. And I should just work 24/7 so that I can stay out of this people.

10:16 PM

Sunday, January 22, 2012,

Dont always act a big shot please, you are nothing but a selfish brat that know nothing in this house. Look what have you done? Nothing! All day long only know how to take your 'baby' to the house and play mahjong, the house is not a casino please.

And when I got insult by that father, can you just shut up? He already did for days! DAYS! I MEAN DAYS! You can take it not? I bet you cant. Duhh.. your pride and ego is bigger than mine. And you saying my rude? what bout you ? RUDE?! Do you even know how to spell? Again, I know you dont. How rude you treat mum, everyone knows it.

You seriously have no stand telling me that I'm rude and just care bout your own business! Asshole.

9:32 PM

Tuesday, December 27, 2011,

I love eating everything in one go. Cause the very next moment, I will be siting on the toilet bowl and shit that everything out ((: Yes, this is my first time blogging and shitting. The feeling is kind of not bad. As I can surf net and not watching T-ara for the moment. Hahahah.

2011 still left a few more days.. As usual, people who blog will start writing a list of what they are gonna do or plan for 2012. But people and news reports used to said before: '2012 is kinda end of the world..' Do you believe? I'm not sure.. So now what? should I plan what goal I have next year?or just spend every single cent I had? Confuse eh? Cause every decision really comes with different regrets, either poor till you cry (If the world survived) or regret that you did't spent a cent, even when you are poor. You get what I mean? You get it right? hahahha.

K, time to end now and wipe things up ((: -flush-

10:51 PM

Monday, December 26, 2011,

Once a human start tweeting, they forgot bout blogging. Blogging is like a dairy, note down what you have done for the day. And tweeting is just like another dairy that only spend a few seconds noting down what they are doing on the spot.

Hahahaha. Why am I write such thing? Don't sounds like me eh?

My life change after I'm single, like really settle down in a status of single. I can feel people around me gets busy with their dates, lover and family. And me, siting here drinking milk, watching Jungle fish 2, crazy over T-ara all day long.

What's my goal in life? Meeting T-ara and be their manager? Hahaha, this though indeed came across my mind. But is a near impossible stuff. To be realistic, I want to get my dip cert and move on to a proper job. Lead a life with no worries for money, life and of course a shelter over my head.

After Nerice had left me, I can't deny that at the point of time, I still behave childishly and immature. Spend my life and money at clubs, drunk almost every week, just to get any another girl to be my girlfriend and forget bout her.. But after all this, I realized that is really time to grow up. Behave like an adult, be more responsible, and most important is to punctual.

Anw, I really have to thanks Nerice for letting me realized my mistake after the break up. She make me see clearly, what I really weak at and how the stubborness in me will gets me into trouble. And truly sorry that, I only appreciate you after you left me. I hate to said this, but I do regret, regretting that I dont love you as much as I though. Regretting how bad I treat you, regretting my ego takes over me. Sorry for everything. And I will learn from my mistake.

6:35 PM

Thursday, October 27, 2011,

Everything seems to working well and stuff. But what happen? Where went wrong? I have no idea, you asked for time and leave me hanging. Is fair for you, but what bout me? Did you even care for my feelings?

Maybe we just don't stand at the same line, your standard is too high for me to reach. Not I don't wanna try, but I do.. And see what state am I? I fall terribly..

11:35 PM